Why is it that everytime I promise my return some thing always gets in the way? How i've longed to update ya'll...but the computers at the library forbid me to access this website for stupid reasons and that's my only means of computer access at the moment! Ugh!

Anyway..the farm has been going great.We have gotten a couple of more horses, sold a couple. I went to a horse show for the first time since March and it was a lot of fun with my green bean Thoroughbred. We got second in 2ft jumpers! It may not seam that much..but since I have been working with him on teaching him just to canter only 8 months ago..it really is a lot! I also got a full time job at a fox hunting/eventing barn as a full time trainer/exercise rider. It seemed as everything was going great. Me and Erich were great, the horses, job, even timing was great. I guess that's why people say never get too comfortable with the routine of life because it could all change in the blink of an eye..and literally it did.
Let me explain..
So I was recouping from a night out with the friends one saturday morning..to tell you the truth I wasn't feeling so good. Once my head cleared I made my way into town to get something to eat and just like that...BAM!!

Those last few seconds will haunt me for the rest of my life, and so will the effects it has on me. Wondering what happened? The combination of speed, metal, and an adolesent driver which resulted in a car crash. It really could have been a lot worse, but I will remember this for the rest of my life.

What happened was someone didn't yeild after stopping at a stop sign at a two way stop and pulled out right in front of me, so I T-boned him at 55 mph with no time to brake, and no seat belt. They had to pull me out of my mangled car and rush me to the hospital. After two days the diagnosis: A shattered heel, broken elbow, deslocated ankle and shoulder. I think I have to have surgery on my ankle, that will be determined when I return to the doctors.

I will heal, yes..but the emotional distress it has had on me and my persoanl relationship with Erich has been devestating. I may lose it all. I may lose the farm..I may have to sell all of my horses (besides Teuer, I will put her in my closet if i have to). I may have to move into an apartment and not have anything to do with horses for the next 6 months. Why do I have to make these sacrifices when it wasn't my fault? I will be out of a job, financially we will suffer. Not only will horses be stripped of me, but also art. My right arm is of course out of comission so I'm pretty much useless. I'm sorry, it may seem like I am whining, but this is the first time horses have been taken from me. Throughout my whole life, with all the turmoil and bad situations i've been in I have always had my horses. Now I feel naked and dependant. It is a feeling i'm not very open to invite.

It will be a struggle, the emotional and physical healing I will be enduring these next few months and really the only things I will be able to turn to are my friends and family. Even though I may end up with a fair settlement when it is all said and done but it will never, ever be worth it. No amount of money would I even for a week give up riding or horses, or even art. So I will hover DA and respecfully admire all of ya'lls beautiful art work, and maybe that will be my motivation. Thankyou, thankyou.